“Document the moments you feel most in love with yourself — what you’re wearing, who you’re around, what you’re doing. Recreate and repeat.”
I feel like my breakup is all I find myself talking about recently, and that’s because it’s all I find myself thinking about.. and it’s annoying. And okay, it’s not allllll I think about. Work is such a good distraction, especially since I really enjoy the people I work with. I can go all day long without thinking about it but as soon as 5 o’clock hits it’s like my breakup and everything that accompanies my break up consumes my thoughts, and it’s such a damper to my mood! Today was especially a rough day. I still had an hour left of work when my breakup began to flood my thoughts and so I texted two of my friends about it, to keep me from texting my ex. (It’s SO weird to say the word “ex” because I still just say Andrew in regular conversation) But anyway, I was a little sad the rest of my shift at work and a for a while after work as well. But Ellie and I had plans to hit the craft store to shop for Valentines day and so I tried to push the breakup thoughts to the back of my mind. Of course, it didn’t work too well, but after the craft store we had to hit up Super Target. (Yes, we had to.) And on our way out, as we were getting back into the car I realized I hadn’t thought about Andrew the entire time we were in target.. and while we weren’t in target for hours on end, it was a start. And I am proud of that! And then when I got home, I didn’t want to fall back into the breakup thoughts so after my shower I tried on my hot new heels, and then I started trying on a ton of different outfits with my hot new heels! ANNNDDD, I think I found my birthday outfit which I’m gonna be lookin so damnnnn good in! AND I AM SO FREAKIN EXCITED!! And it really just lifted my spirits!
And so I just wanted to share that even in times of hardship there is ALWAYS something to be happy about, there is ALWAYS something to be grateful for, and there is ALWAYS a positive lining. Always. “There is no such thing as a bad day. If you have a few bad hours, shake it off, fix your mentality, and get after it again.” So, for those little moments of pure bliss I had today, I am so so thankful.
P.S. HAPPY FEBRUARY 1st! IT’S THE MONTH OF LOVE SO SPREAD LOVE TO ALL AND MAKE SURE EVERYBODY YOU LOVE, KNOWS THAT YOU LOVE THEM. LIFE IS SHORT!