The grey area.

I am such an emotional writer. I feel like I do my best and most powerful writing when I am sad and heartbroken but those aren’t emotions I feel every often. Don’t get me wrong, I am just like everybody else… I get sad. I cry (a lot). I get down, depressed, in a funk. But I try not to soak in those emotions. Because I used to, and I just wasn’t happy. And I know that it can sometimes be hard not to soak in those negative feelings. Sometimes to overcome those feelings, you have to soak. But try not to stay for too long. If the hurt comes, so will the healing.

Anyway, I am an emotional writing. My inspiration and motivation and ideas sprout when I am super happy or super sad. When I am super excited or really anxious. When I am over the moon or six feet under. And when I’m at the “in between” stage, when I’m in the grey area, when I’m not on either end of the scale I feel lost. Which is where I am right now. I’m in the grey area. I just feel plain. Blah. Ugh. I’m not depressed but I’m not ecstatic either. I almost feel numb. Not sure where my mind is. Not sure where my heart is. I’m very use about a lot of things currently, including my writing. And the, for me, is the more frustrating. I love being inspired, and I love to inspire others. And when I feel completely uninspired I don’t feel like myself. And I don’t like it.

I don’t know what I should do to get out of this grey area. I don’t know what I should do feel inspired again. I don’t know what I should do to feel motivated again. Hopefully I start feeling like myself again soon. Hopefully my next couple of blog post will be something I’m excited and passionate to write about. In the beginning of the year I was writing almost every day. I want to get back there! And I wanted to put the way I feel now, out in the open. 1- because it helps get all those feelings (or lack there of) off my chest and 2- I try to keep it real, keep it 100 all the time. If you have any advice for getting out of this slump pleaseeee let me know!


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