“Fear will either create you or destroy you. I love fear, why? Because behind every fear is a person you wanna be. Fear is self-imposed, that means it doesn’t exist. You create it and you can destory it too, it’s an intangible. When you face your fear you realize it’s not that big.”
I feel like I’ve left fear dictate a lot of decisions in my life. Less about making a certain decision and more about not making a certian decision. Does that make sense? I feel like I’ve said “no” or opted out of opportunities because I was scared. Or didn’t even give myself the option to have an oppertunity because I was scared. Totally annoying, right?
I have watched YouTube for years. I think it started my sophomore or junior year of highschool, I can’t remember exactly when. But I started watching beauty gurus and videos about girls similar in age to myself at the time and I loved it. I thought the content they were able to create and put out there for the world to see was really incredible. I also watched a lot of YouTubers who lived in different pars of the country (America) and all became connected and friends through YouTube, which was also really incredible.
The idea of starting my own channel crossed my mind more times than I can count but I never had the guts to actually do it. I was scared. And I doubted myself. And I was self-conscious. All of these things steam from fear and I let them dictate my decision.
Fast forward a few years and I was still watching YouTube videos, and I was honestly a little embarrassed about it to be honest with you. When Andrew and I started dating I think it took me awhile to let him in on my secret obsession. Eventually Andrew got more into YouTube as our relationship grew, although he wasn’t really into beauty gurus or female daily vloggers!
Now we are both addicted! And the thought came to us awhile ago about how we should start our own channel. And so guess what…
WE MADE A YOUTUBE CHANNEL!
It’s been a long time coming and we are both so excited. Of course, I still have some fears. I’m scared we may not be consistent and stick with it. I’m scared we won’t be very successful— that people won’t be interested in the content we post and that this whole thing will be a flop. I’m scared of what people may think— my family, friends, co-workers. But I’m not going to let any of that stop me. I know Andrew has some fears too, but again, he isn’t going to let his fears stop him from pursuing something he wants to do. (Andrew never lets anything stop him, and it’s one of the things I admire most about him.) So here we are!
Today, October 13th, 2017 is our launch date and our first video is posted! You can check it out HERE. Hit that subscribe button for more videos in the future! We don’t have a consistent upload schedule yet, and honestly I don’t know if we will. It can be hard to film when we both work full-time jobs and our schedules don’t always line up. Plus, it’s a new adjustment. But stick with us because we will keep progressing and getting better and we are so excited to put our content out there!
I sit here finishing this post and thinking about uploading our first video. It makes me smile and I feel very proud of Andrew and I. Like I already said, I have let fear dictate so many decisions in my life and I am tired of living that way. I’m excited to take a step in the right direction and do something that terrifies me.
I am looking fear in the face.
We all of fears, some are realistic and some are not. Either way we all have them. Are the fears you have keeping you from doing something amazing? Something totally awesome? Something that could potentially change your life? If so, stop. Stop living in fear. Take a leap of faith and believe in yourself. “Better an ‘oops’ than a ‘what if’.”
“Being fearless isn’t being 100% not fearful. It’s being terrified but you jump anyway.”
“If you’re nervous it means you give a damn.”
“The desire for success should be greater than the fear of failure.”
“Drown out the voice of uncertainty with the sound of your own heartbeat, burn away your self-doubt with a fire lit beneath you.”
“Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something in you that is greater than any obstacle.”
-Spread kindness, love, & gratitude like wildfire.